Saturday, May 25, 2019

On Hiatus














I cannot share in your debates
the never-ending brouhaha;
combating anger and such hate
just leaves me feeling frayed and fraught.
It’s not that I have blinders on
am ignorant, without a clue,
the lies keep changing every day
out on display for our review.
My focus has turned singular
as if,  perhaps, by will alone—
I could fend away the fear
against this dark and great unknown.

So should you wonder where I am?
I’m right here where I need to be
battling unbending foe
never ceding to defeat.

And when this campaign’s finally done,
when I’ve done all I can do,
and when I’m sure that we have won
that’s when I’ll return to you.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Saturday, May 18, 2019

Moonstruck




I step into the cool night air
to see her face among the trees—
her soft white light shines down on me

I pause a moment just to stare...
in quietude I am renewed
erasing burdens that I bear

Hard-pressed to let this peace recede,
I linger in the cool night air

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Finding Grace


We dwell in a place between there and here
between then and now
between now and when…
a limbo of circumstance
designed by fate to strip away faith.
The minutes tick by,
stripping away slices of us
bit by bit, piece by piece.
No one is exempt from the hands of time;
it is an ever-constant reminder
that all things hinge on us:
on who we are, on our willingness
to change, to grow past our pain
to grow past sad endings
to believe in new beginnings
to believe that there has to be more.
And somewhere in this equation we realize
that we, each of us, are a part
of someone else’s puzzle

Grace emanates from the depths of our own exhaustion,
in the willingness to reach out
and lift the weight of another
even as we struggle with our own.
We draw our strength from each other,
and somehow, through this, we go on.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Sunday, May 5, 2019

Non-functional (Life On Hold)


Night now slowly dissipates to day
overhead the skies are filled with dread
nefarious, these voices in my head.

Familiar now, this rain against the sill,
under endless mantle of pale gray,
nothing seems to change, the clock stands still.
Come what may, we’ll weather what’s ahead,
together we can fend away our fears
if we don’t let uncertainties adhere.
Once more, we'll face despair and doubt head-on,
not ceding to the darkness before dawn
…and all that we have faith will come to be,
    lies somewhere in the heart of you and me.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

True Lies














A world spinning backwards, who would’ve thought…
aggrandizing leader whose policies have brought
a shift to this country,  with promises grand…
while he does what he does with his head in the sand.
His defenders, they say “What a great Christian leader!”
while ignoring the porn star that proved he’s a cheater.
All the rats jumping ship to distance themselves
from the guilt just keeps building the further they delve.
A train wreck’s a coming, there’s blood on the tracks,
the avalanche is growing, there’s no turning back;
the web you have woven is falling apart,
but with all that is wrong, where do we start?
Not everyone’s lying, if I have to choose
I believe both the Post and the Times with their news.
It’s amazing to see how the country’s divided,
and how you promote this with lies and with chiding.
And your base just stands by, as Republicans waffle,
walking their tightrope ‘tween crude and unlawful
We cannot deny that this country is hurting
the lack of true leadership’s quite disconcerting.
Where will you stand when the smoke finally clears,
when the guilty are named or have lost their careers?
Can we find our way back through the anger and shame
as we try not to cringe at the sound of your name?
How long will it take the good guys to ride in;
less talk and more action, where to begin?

© Ginny Brannan  2019

Written in 2018, still current. Sharing 2019. Because "change" is slow to happen.

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Paved with Good Intentions













The future on hold
unmet goals notwithstanding
and so April ends

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Sorry that I did not meet my goals. Juggling too many balls at the moment. Congrats to my friends who did 30 in 30!

Monday, April 29, 2019

For the Reckoning



Spring cares not of dates or time—
the earth turns, the axis shifts...
warmth returns to frozen ground.
Rains come to green the grass
coaxing buds to spread their leaves.
Flowers explode in pastel profusion.

There is a lesson here
that a power larger than us exists.
It controls the things that we cannot.
Call it nature or miracle, science or grace.
It exists in spite of us—
in spite of the reckless will of man.
A gift for our reckoning…
a reminder for the apathetic,
a call that coexistence, not resistance,
is not only the best, but the only
way to live.

We may think we dominate the world
yet from the slightest to the largest
each creature has a role to play.
Remember, we are but one
of over eight million species
perspective is everything

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Image: Charles Parant, Appetite for Photos. Used with expressed written permission.

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Learning Curve













No one tells you that life is messy, 
that our days are rarely
sunshine and rainbows…
that there will be losses and gains
hard work and struggle
trials and pain.

Yet…

There are moments  when our better angels rule—
when life returns in shades of lavender and green,
in brief glimpses of blue between the gray.
It’s for these days that this heart yearns—
when, for a moment, the havoc subsides,
when we can feel the sun on our face again.
When we can finally breathe again.

© Ginny Brannan

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

Tick–Tock


 Time isn’t fluid…
   it stops and starts—
   at once speeding up
   running rampant off its track;
   then slowing to a crawl…
   as the seconds tick by 
   with no negligible change.

Clocks are only part of the equation
   as we wait to see what comes next.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Monday, April 22, 2019

Not my 'Strong Suit'

















An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.
Time heals all wounds.

Would that we could go back?
Would that we could foresee
 and fix the future before it happens?
Life doesn’t work that way.
So we become reactive
 instead of proactive–
trying to repair what is broken
 rather than prevent it in the first place.
Trying to heal what is beyond our scope
 when we don’t even know the cure.

Patience is a virtue.
Slow and steady wins the race.
All good things come to those who wait

             …I’m waiting

© Ginny Brannan

Saturday, April 20, 2019

Waiting on Divine Intervention


Once more it seems I fall behind,
and drag what’s left of my esteem,
wishing I could take the time
to write down thoughts, to share my dreams.

My ideas smashed to smithereens—
while torn between the here and there,
and trying to row this boat upstream
with all my oars in disrepair.

I flounder here amid extremes
somewhere among the lows and highs,
still searching for some subroutine
that will not leave me paralyzed.

I teeter in this “in-between”
  and wait on God to intervene.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Image by author

Thursday, April 18, 2019

On the Anniversary of Your Birth...

I see you in the early hours
 a ghost, a spectre come and gone...

I’ve dreamt your face a thousand times
inside the quiet before the dawn,
yet as another day begins
I watch you fall away again…

We cannot stop the flow of time,
this steady passing of our days—
the love we share will see us through,
 and deep inside, I carry you.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

We three: three neighborhood friends, three school buddies...through high school, college, marriage and children, through the highs and lows. More friends would join us, but from the beginning, there was always us three. Now, there are two.  On this anniversary of your birth, know that I will never forget you...you have been and will always be my friend.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Our Lady of the Ashes













I gazed upon the scene, surreal,
  a theater of the absurd,
and wondered deep within this heart
  How could such thing occur?
I watched her cry through stained glass eyes
  as ash and soot rained down,
yet in the nave where fire raged
  the angels stood their ground.
And in the streets the voices rose
  avowed their love for thee,
and from the ash, a spark of hope,
  against such tragedy.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

My heart was heavy watching the scene unfold in Paris on Monday 4/15/19. And yet even as she burned, in the streets Ave Maria could be heard as local Parisians lifted their voices. A spark; a glimmer that she will rise again from the ashes. Besides, we all know that you can't keep a good woman down.

Monday, April 15, 2019

Eyes on the Prize














We don’t know where we’ll be from one moment to the next,
even on the best of days the worse can happen.
We are in this game together,.
We tag-team each other.
No matter what we’re dealt,
we go for the win.
I have no 'poker face,' but
I still play a pretty damn good game.
Our ultimate goal, always–
 to get to the end without folding.

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Obvious metaphor, needs work, but where my head's at today.


Sunday, April 14, 2019

Theorizing the Atlas Curse



I’ve had enough of this endless curse,
the highs, the lows, the stop and goes—
it slows for a moment and speeds up again;
can’t seem to cut a break, can’t seem to win.
Like Atlas,  are we condemned  to carry 
the weight of the world on our shoulders
through all of  eternity?

In theory, there is no rest for the weary

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Awake at 4 a.m.

I wake up at 4 a.m., no hope of falling back asleep
and the film in my head is already
running the odds and worse case scenarios.
Just can’t get away from them.
And I pray for the surgeon's steady hand,
 and I pray you’ll be whole again—
Does God even hear the prayers of fools and sinners?
So many dreams and hopes
colliding with so many unknowns...

I know you’re strong—
I just hope I can be strong enough now
for the both of us.

© GB 2019




Wearing my heart on my sleeve today...

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

No Excuses



I’m sorry I was late today,
I really don’t know what to say.
Could blame the traffic or the clock
—but that would be a bunch of crock.

The sky dawned bright, for once, not gray
I’m sorry I was late today—
a moment in that April air
prompted me to tarry there.

I stopped to gaze upon the trees,
and ponder possibilities…
I’m sorry I was late today
the new spring blooms got in the way.

I’ll plead the 5th and then recuse,
(there really is no good excuse)
I’d rather stay outside and play…
…  I’m sorry I was late today

© Ginny Brannan 2019

From a suggested prompt from a previous year for NaPoWriMo: to write an apology. The format is called a Quatern.

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

...But First, Coffee












The yard calls to me…
“You need to finish raking!” it says.
There is a sink full of dirty dishes—
like magic they’ve appeared overnight.
Am pretty sure they belong to the two trolls
that live in our basement—
the “mole people,” as we fondly call them:
working nights, they come up from the depths,
blinking sleep-filled eyes against the light of day.
Two loads of wash sit sorted in the corner ready to go
  and I don’t yet know what I’m making for supper.
Psyching myself to take on the world
        …but first, coffee!

© Ginny Brannan 2019

Monday, April 8, 2019

Circlin' the Drain













We don’t know when we’ll pay our dues
but we all have to check out sometime.
Death is a fact of life,
and these eyes have seen too many
'facts' already for this lifetime.
At what point is enough enough?
How many more circles ‘round the sun are left?
I guess that’s between the good Lord and me,
or perhaps the devil on any given day.
I’m still here, and until I start ‘circling the drain’
I’m not plannin’ on goin’ anywhere too soon.
Hear that, ya vultures?

Hopin’ my next home likes ‘em sassy, ‘cuz I aint ‘bout to change now!

© Ginny Brannan 2019


Checked out the Day 8 Challenge for NaPoWriMo that suggested using a slang term as metaphor from one of several professions. I chose my “profession”  sort of loosely, (medical as I am support staff for skilled nursing) and the slang term “CTD”  “circling the drain”, a ‘metaphor’ for actively dying. It works.

Image: Pinta Dora

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Hello, Cutie!













I hear the squeak of the chair 
   as he enters my office—

Hello,Cutie! Can I have a coffee?”

His smile is infectious!

Some days, he reminisces.
Most days, he is focused on his coffee,
...and sometimes, the person behind it.

Kindness truly is the “universal” language…
and those smiles—both given and received—
          the best reward!

© Ginny Brannan 2019

One of my tasks at work is to serve coffee to those who ask. We used to have it out for folks to help themselves, but for safety reasons it has to be served now. "Barista" is my new middle name! (Or "Cutie." I'll answer to that too!)
Carefully tiptoeing HIPAA guidelines here: No name, no age, or identifying markers.

Second Chances














I was the quiet one, the odd one,
the one that you whispered about in the hall...
How many times a day did you walk by me?
How many times a day did you remind me? 
Still, we were friends once, for a minute.
You were the social climber,
busy collecting new friends.
I was the one with no social graces;
never knowing exactly what to say
so never saying anything.

Some hurts are easier to let go of than others,
       and some, not so much...
  
Funny, isn’t it, how time becomes the great equalizer—
It's taught me that we are all less-than-perfect,
that we’ve all been through stuff,
and that it’s okay to let our sleeping pasts lie.

Besides, I'm liking you so much better the second time around!

© Ginny Brannan 2019


Saturday, April 6, 2019

Between the Darkness and the Light


















Hope" is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all"
                 Emily Dickinson
    * * * * * * * * * * * * 
It matters little who we have
we face the darkness on our own;
though well-intentioned offer help
deep inside we stand alone.
We reach for lifelines out of grasp
while seconds float away, unmeasured;
till finally we face our foe.
Courage comes when all is lost—
on tattered wings fly hidden treasure:
“Hope” is the thing with feathers

So we adapt as life evolves
and often we must start again,
set a course in new direction—
make conscious choice to sink or swim.
Through each trial a lesson learned
yet there’s so little we control--
still we search to find completeness,
even as the songbird seeks
the melody that makes it whole;
one that perches in the soul.

Ever striving for perfection
as indecisive egos fail;
hitting road blocks without signs,
emotions cloaked behind gray veil.
Where’s the person we once knew?
Suddenly the lines are blurred—
we barely recognize ourselves,
and friends—they see a ‘mournful’ dove
the humblest of all the birds—
that sings the song without words

This tune should be familiar now
we hear it echo through the night,
as we balance on that brink
between the darkness and the light.
Determined now, we seek the dawn
while guided by that lone bird’s call
the path grows clearer with each step
and ever forward, we trek on
and "hope” survives despite each fall
and never stops at all

© Ginny Brannan 

Started in 2013, One of two Glosa's using lines from "Hope" by Emily Dickinson.
There are several slant rhymes sprinkled throughout this, I think Miss Em would approve!

First share here for April NaPoWriMo 2019

The first Glosa to use these lines, shared in 2013: "Finding The Melody"